An aircraft maintenance worker describes his first experience at thirteen with a man of about thirty who had hired him to do yard work. After inviting him inside and showing him pictures of men wrestling, the man 

“started rubbing my crotch, and I was both nervous and really excited by it.” 

He went on to seek out other significantly older men. 

“I never felt used. I really wanted it, and except for the first time I always felt like the aggressor”